Do you catch yourself thinking that somebody with bipolar who is really successful at something must not REALLY be bipolar?
It's funny, but then again, not so much.
I don't like admitting to it, but I think this sometimes. From pure envy. Goddamn. Look what she did! I always wanted to do that! My bipolar has stood in the way of my doing it. So if she did it, she couldn't REALLY be bipolar. Right? Wait a minute .....
If I had cancer myself, I wouldn't think a person with cancer who was in remission, or managing to live well with the disease, must not REALLY have cancer!
But with bipolar - it makes me feel like shit when someone else accomplishes something. Because, deep down, I still think I'm doing this to myself. I'm making myself bipolar. It's my fault. I could "overcome" it if I tried hard enough.
Bullshit. Bullshit, brain!
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